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The Unquenchable Worshipper: Coming Back to the Heart of Worship (Worship Series) By Matt Redman

Too good to be true.

Do you ever meet people who are just too good to be true? I do. Some folks I have an uneasy feeling about everything they tell me about themselves but it isn't anything I can put my finger on. They just don't seem real and I tend to take all they say with a pinch of salt. I long when this happens for something to prove me right or wrong about those nagging feelings.

As a Christian I am so glad that Jesus isn't like that. Over the summer I have been doing a lot of thinking about my position in Christ. I praise Him that the claims He makes are real and can be totally trusted. He is the Christ, the son of the Living God. He did die and was raised to life again. He has called me to Himself and 'by grace I have been saved through faith, and that not of myself, it is the gift of God, ...' I am so full of thankfulness that 'In Him I also trusted, after I heard the word of truth, the gospel of my salvation, I was sealed with the Holy Spirit of promise, who is the guarantee of my inheritance until the redemption of the purchased possession, to the praise of His glory.' (Quotes from Ephesians in the Bible)

So perhaps when I meet these people in my daily walk I need to remember these verses and praise God for His willingness to share Himself with me.

Back to College

I have started back at College for another year. I passed my Level 2 of a Child Care qualification and am now onto the higher level. We had the introduction on Wednesday. I was alright until she started talking about needing to think about things on a more supervisory level and the need for us to do a Longitudinal Observation of a child (translation: study one child over a certain period of time!) I have one particular child in mind and will chat about the possibilities of that with my Manager on Monday.

We have to write up regular log diaries of the work we do but this level needs it to be about situations I deal with (eg discussing with a parent about their child) rather than activities I am involved in (painting etc). OK, that sounds more tricky. I wasn't looking forward to it but once I started it I realised that I do like studying. My tutor wants to have a look at what we have written and will advise us if we have understood her instructions! We have to study more about Child Development theories, do more in-depth child observations on various children and also the Longitudinal Observation. I am really looking forward to this course. I do enjoy studying and I like observing how children behave and interact with their peers and adults. Believe it or not I also like studying the legal side of working with Children (eg Child Protection, Health and Safety).

I am also excited to see where this qualification will lead me. I know that God has a place for me and am very interested in finding out. If this year doesn't kill me (and cause my family to dread me looking at another text book!) I would like to study further and obtain a degree eventually. But God knows and for the minute I am going to enjoy this c

From negative to postive - a work in progress!

I am learning more of God and His greatness over the past few months. One of the ways I am learning of it is through His people. I am naturally a negative kind of person and will often look on the bad side of peoples' motives (some would say this comes with the terrority of being a pastor's wife!). I have to fight this part of my personality. I have been blessed to come across Christians in the past year who without realising have been such an influence on my life by being positive about the Lord and other Christians. I thank God for the Internet for that reason. Unfortunately, (like a reformed smoker!!!) I get really sad when I hear such negative comments about fellow Christians. This is not the way I or the body of Christ should be.

I was able to go to the Bible study the other night. The church is working through Galatians and is on Chapter 6. We looked at bearing one another's burdens and that is the responsibility of all of us in a local church fellowship. The passage (verses 1-5) at first appear contradictory but the man leading the bible study clearly set out what it means. The burdens and load mentioned are different. It spoke to me that the load is to do with my responsibility as a Christian; my study of the word, my worship of God, my work that He has prepared for me to do. I sort that out between God and myself. The burdens of others we are to share, to allow others into our lives to let them help us if necessary.

The last few verses of the study (6&7) the man said they refer to the pastor (that being my husband!). He explained the responsibility of the church to look after the pastor because he teaches the word each week. I was amazed to hear the love that some of our church members have for my husband (and myself). As the pastor's wife it was good to hear. Praise God that they are blessed by his preaching and the way he deals with people.

It is my prayer that we both allow the Holy Spirit to work in our lives to continue to be of help to this church, our community, amongst our friends and for me the 'cyber' world I frequent. Those of you out there reading this if you ever notice a negative complaining heart creeping in tell me and by God's grace I will accept your words and deal with it. I know that if that attitude takes hold again I am not much use to God nor man!

A work in progress ......

The Summer Holidays are nearly finished. I am not so good during this time as I am the kind of person who needs the routine of life to work effectively. I achieve far more with deadlines and business then when I have hourse to spare!

Over this summer I have learnt more about my personality and am trying to work against the parts that aren't honouring to Jesus. If I don't worship God as I ought I become too introspective and start looking around at what that person is or isn't doing and then I become disheartened - I become critical of others and myself. The more I seek to worship God the more I realise that I am a huge work in progress and His grace is sufficient for me.

Over the summer I have looked, listened and read many things. I am becoming more convicted that I have got to get out of my safe place haven and get to know people where I live. I have so many opportunities with my college course, my placement, the parents from the girl's classes, the Toddler group etc etc. I must pray diligently that I be a light to Jesus. He will answer that prayer. He has a work for me to do here. I am learning to be grateful for the gifts that God has given me and I now have to use them more and more for His glory. I must be a witness in word and deed. One isn't any good without the other so I have to put each day into the hands of my Lord. He has a plan for my life and I must trust Him daily for it.

I have also learnt that Jesus is all I need. I am to have faith in Him and not what He can give me. He may choose to bless me abundantly materially, emotionally etc but I am to be content in what I have and trust Him no matter the circumstances. Recently, I read 1 Timothy 6 to remind myself of this.

Praise God that He never gives up on His children.

Building 'Church' memories for my children.

I was born and brought up in a Christian home and for that I am thankful. Those who know me in RL know that I don't have many memories (think Dorie the Fish on 'Finding Nemo' and you can't go far wrong!!!) but I do have a few.

Some of the strongest memories I have are of the church I was brought up in and I was reminded of them today whilst listening to a Wes King album.

• I remember the parties at Christmas when we all piled into the 'Sports Hall' of the church and everyone joined in the games, mostly revolving around food and chocolate.
  
• The summer outings when they were whole day affairs consisting of a trip in the morning and races and food in the afternoon. Large trestle tables heaving under the weight of all the vituals so lovingly prepared. I never won any of the races but I packed a decent amount of that food away.
  
• The wonderful choruses we used to sing. Led by our lovely Sunday School leader.
• My Sunday School teachers who taught me so much of the bible. A confirmation of what my parents thought me at home.
• Learning bible verses so I could get my Covenantors badge and the coloured pieces of felt that went with it!
• Having a service long 'foot-fight' with my brother and then being really told off by mum.
• The old godly Christians who took time with us young children and befriended us and prayed for us as well.
• Mum and dad's friend who would come around often for meals and the presents he would give us at Christmas.

And the list goes on. I really want my children to have similar memories of church. They love it at the moment but I want them to cherish what they do at our Fellowship. It is part of my job to build them for mine and the other children we are blessed with here.

Test everyone

Someone asked me the other day why our church doesn't support the arts because we don't have dramas and short-act plays in the services. I realised the question, as with almost every question, goes back to creation. I don't believe something has to be in a church service to be 'for God'. ... A church is a community of people who are learning how to be certain kinds of people wherever thy find themselves, so they can do whatever it is they do 'in the name of the Lord Jesus.' The goal isn't to bring everyone's work into the church; the goal if for the church to be these unique kinds of people who are transforming the places they live and work and play because they understand the whole earth is filled with the kavod (glory) of God. God isn't in one building only. Doing things for God happens all the time, everywhere. ...

So the labels ultimately fail, no matter how useful they are from time to time, because the life of Jesus is just that, a life that is lived by people who have oriented their entire lives around being true to Jesus' teachings.

One of the first things God does in creating the world is separate dark and light. The ancient rabbis say the first thing God does is distinguish between dark and light, and the rest of the Scriptures is God teaching people how to distinguish between dark and light. Huge sections of the book of Leviticus are devoted to God teaching people how to discern between life and death, light and dark, clean and unclean. The Ten Commandments are God teaching people how to discern, and how to live well in relationship between right and wrong with their creator. The Bible is filled with stories of God teaching people how to think. How to discern. How to sort and sift and figure out what is true and what isn't. What is good and what isn't. What brings life and what brings death.

Being a Christian is about engaging the mind and heart more and more, not shutting them off or letting someone else think for you. The writer Peter urges Christians to be alert. Paul tells his listeners in Thessalonica to test everything and hold on to the good.

The danger of labeling things 'Christian' is that is can lead to blindly consuming things we have been told are safe and acceptable. When we turn off the discernment radar, dangerous things can happen. We have to test everything. I thank God for the many Christians who create and write and film and sing. Anybody anywhere who is doing all they can to point people to the deeper realities of God is doing a beautiful thing. But those writers and artist and thinkers and singers would all tell you to think long and hard about what they are saying and doing and creating. Test it. Probe it.

Do that to this book. Don't swallow it uncritically. Think about it. Wrestle with it. Just because I'm a Christian and I'm trying to articulate a Christian worldview doesn't mean I've got it nailed. I'm contributing to the discussion. God has spoken, and the rest is commentary, right?

Velvet Elvis. Repainting the Christian Faith. by Rob Bell